Did you see me smiling?

Good bye. May Allah heals you. 

Ya Allah, please help me

Ya Allah, i am in despair. Please help me. I lost the energy and drive to go on. I feel so lonely Ya Rabb. 

Please help me. I miss Hujan so much. I wish I could be with him. But I know Ya Allah, your qada and qadar is the best for me. 

Help me Ya Allah, You are the all Mighty. 

For the light in your eyes Araa.

"I love you from far away. I pray to Allah SWT that our path will be together in this world until the paradise."

This is the word I would like to whisper to you, my beloved. 

Hai, 😌. Day dreaming. 

Menghadap badai

Bersungguh-sungguh engkau untuk negara dan negeri mu.

At forty years of age

Thanks Allah SWT 

After the COVID-19...

Two years of hiatus. Does not have the slightest idea why I left this blog iddle. Most probably due to work commitments and my studies.

Maybe the case of falling head over heels to Mr.Hujan Air Mata. I love you sir, with all my heart. 

Maybe due to COVID 19. It just kills whatever feelings that are in my heart and replaced it with sorrows.

Maybe to my depression that kept me at bay. Not wanting to do anything.

Maybe to the black magic that engulfed me with all its forms and almost killed me.

But I am alive. Kicking and living. Allah SWT knows. 

Dear Allah,

Please forgive all my sins and gave me strength to live my life fully as a good Muslim. 

Mr.Hujan Air Mata, my love for you never dies...

Embracing Change And Being Steadfast Towards Life and Living As an Assistant District Officer.

Salam and Hi!

Already four month has passed in the year 2019. What a hectic life, until now only Adli managed to sign in again to this blog, typing out my musings on life and living as a government officer with the rank of assistant district officer.

This writing and this blog is for the purpose of polishing my ever rusting English Language. Yeah, most of the time, English is a self taught language since my schooling years. Years of neglect, years of not learning it properly resulting in "cukup makan".

This year, Adli was instructed to serve another post at the District Office. So good bye Land Office, 6 years, quite a long time but a very colorful and challenging tenure. Embracing change even though Adli love the Land Office so much. Adli knows that sooner or later, Adli need to learn about the District Office running if  Adli going to fulfill  mother and father dreams on Adli being a District Officer someday in the long run of serving the government hence the name of this blog, Budak Gomen.

Since March, Adli learning and unlearn also relearning on how to do the job. But Adli love it, the new challenge did wonders to somehow my dull life. Adli  managed this year to cycle in two fun ride and the feeling is very great. Adli also managed to find new spark on being in the relationship. Thank you my dear, you make my life lovelier.

Learning never stop and the process of disciplining my self to become a good muslim also never stop. My Allah SWT ease the process. My Allah SWT bestowed Adli with the strength and agility, patient and perseverance.